Bones Straining
Bones Straining Memory is a funny thing. Being back in San Diego 2.5 years after moving away gets the nostalgia machine fired up. I remember fondly the days of walking to the beach, cuddling our pups in our small OB cottage, slinging drinks and shooting photos and managing the hostel, making what felt like lots […]
What it was like before recovery
What it was like before recovery Yesterday I lost my phone at Target. It slipped out of a silly, too-small pocket on my purse and I didn’t notice. Of course I immediately started freaking out, “Oh my gosh, how could I be so dumb? What if no one turns it in? What if I have […]
2 years ago, 1 year ago, 5 months ago, NOW
2 years ago, 1 year ago, 5 months ago, NOW Our 1 year anniversary of being back in the USA just came and went without us even blinking an eye. 👁 How does the time fly so fast? ✈️ 2 years ago I got this fortune from my favorite temple in Bangkok, Wat Saket. I […]
I See It Now
“If you could see even a fraction of what’s possible for you, you would fall to your knees and cry.” – Laura McKowen I See It Now – Yoga Retreats For Recovery. Almost 2 years ago this girl went to Cambodia and walked around ancient temples in the jungle. This girl had a good friend […]
3 years of sober, not boring.
Starting off retreat #3 on my 3rd sober birthday. 3 years of sober, not boring. 8.8.19, date of “The Lion’s Gate” according to astrology, was also my 3rd sober birthday. 3 whole years = 36 months = 157 weeks = 1095 days of living clean. Not to mention approximately $33,000 saved, based on the rate […]
The Healing Process: Getting Grounded through Bodywork
I’m beginning a new series here on the Bigger Life blog, in which I intend to get nitty gritty into different healing modalities and aspects of mental, spiritual, and physical recovery. I want this series to help bridge the perceived (but not necessarily real?) gap between body and mind, as well as clarify some of […]
The real, embarrassing work of recovery
The real, embarrassing work of recovery This is an embarrassing but important post to write. This is the real work of recovery: 6 years ago I (Carrie) got blackout drunk and stupidly decided to drive my car. It was possibly the dumbest decision of my life, but unfortunately far from the only time I made terrible […]
Changing, growing, and losing “home.”
“It just sort of happens one day, one day and it’s just gone. And you can never get it back. It’s like you get homesick for a place that doesn’t exist. I don’t know maybe it’s like this right of passage, you know.” – one of my all-time favorite movie quotes from Garden State. Still […]
The 13th Step. It’s What’s Missing From AA.
The 13th Step. It’s What’s Missing From AA. What’s missing from AA and 12-steps programs? Or maybe there’s nothing missing, but there’s just something that should come afterwards? A 13th step, perhaps? Although AA worked wonders for getting me sober and helping me make new sober friends, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where […]
Snowboarding is just like sobriety…
My snowboarding journey has been long and challenging…longer than I ever expected it to be. I first tried to learn 8 years ago, the last time we lived close to Flagstaff’s Arizona Snowbowl Resort. Zach taught me. He had the patience of a saint, although I’m still surprised our relationship survived that winter! I was […]